I haven't posted in seven months. Needless to say, the train got a little off the track.
I just re-read my last post from late November. I was full swing with my fitness program and had just started seeing a dude. Allow me to sum up the time span between then and now.
December- get into a full blown boyfriend/girlfriend relationship with said dude. Go to Florida over Christmas to see family. Get a little off track with workouts but still conscious of my plans.
January & February- dude joins the same gym as me on January 1st. This is perfect, and we start going to the gym together after work 5 days a week. Wake up, go to work, work out, cook healthy(ish) dinner. Dude never quite understands the nutrition part of it and while he was a great gym motivator, the eating was a little off. It's winter. Winter sucks. Drama at the capitol (Solidarity!), Packers win Superbowl. Happy.
March- We start to lose a little steam with the frequency of the workouts, we're deep into winter here and I'm sick of the cold and gray and being cold and indoors. We take a trip together to Washington DC to meet his super-jew family. They're cool, but he and I aren't connecting like we were (or would we ever really connect?).
April- At work, shit hits the fan. I have to travel two out of the four weeks. All gym efforts are pretty much abandoned here, along with clean eating in favor of "stress relieving" cocktails after work. I'm realizing my bf isn't very nice to me and never really was. I break up with him the day I get back from San Francisco.
May- work work work, crappy rainy weather, more work trips, adjusting to singledom, car shopping, and coming up with more excuses as to why I'm not going to the gym or eating clean. Really off track. Bagel and iced coffee for breakfast? OK! Out to lunch with co-workers? Why not! ugh. Out to dinner and cocktails with friends several days a week? SOUNDS GREAT.
June- weather finally getting nice, but I'm still working too much, not planning ahead (I know better!) and have no will power. Need to get my mind right. Start reeling in the drinking and half-heartedly try to eat a little better. Still not planning ahead. Workout a handful of times. You know what the best kick in the pants is? Getting fat. God dammit! I'm back to where I started last September.
Which brings us to now, July 7th. I just spent the last week in North Carolina, visiting my older brother and younger sister in Raleigh/Durham. Even spent some time at the beach. Being around them was so nice, not only are they just overall kick-ass in general, they have both become very health oriented and I was so happy to see them looking as fit as ever. Now, this kinda sucked for me because I pretty much felt like a fat loser, even though I have self confidence and self-esteem I could have more and I just feel so crappy about getting off track. I just think about where I would be now if I had kept up my plan. I would be feeling great! More fun to be around, happier, more able to cope with the work stress, and more confident in my journey towards my education and career goals.
There are a couple of elements critical to my success that I need to focus on. The first is planning ahead. Pre-planning meals and making sure I have clean gym clothes ready to go. The second is finding positive role models. I need to surround myself with like-minded folks who want to be fit and happy healthy.
The good news is, I have found my bootstraps (again!), and I know how to pull myself up by them.
The next round begins now. Let the sweat sessions commence!
I just re-read my last post from late November. I was full swing with my fitness program and had just started seeing a dude. Allow me to sum up the time span between then and now.
December- get into a full blown boyfriend/girlfriend relationship with said dude. Go to Florida over Christmas to see family. Get a little off track with workouts but still conscious of my plans.
January & February- dude joins the same gym as me on January 1st. This is perfect, and we start going to the gym together after work 5 days a week. Wake up, go to work, work out, cook healthy(ish) dinner. Dude never quite understands the nutrition part of it and while he was a great gym motivator, the eating was a little off. It's winter. Winter sucks. Drama at the capitol (Solidarity!), Packers win Superbowl. Happy.
March- We start to lose a little steam with the frequency of the workouts, we're deep into winter here and I'm sick of the cold and gray and being cold and indoors. We take a trip together to Washington DC to meet his super-jew family. They're cool, but he and I aren't connecting like we were (or would we ever really connect?).
April- At work, shit hits the fan. I have to travel two out of the four weeks. All gym efforts are pretty much abandoned here, along with clean eating in favor of "stress relieving" cocktails after work. I'm realizing my bf isn't very nice to me and never really was. I break up with him the day I get back from San Francisco.
May- work work work, crappy rainy weather, more work trips, adjusting to singledom, car shopping, and coming up with more excuses as to why I'm not going to the gym or eating clean. Really off track. Bagel and iced coffee for breakfast? OK! Out to lunch with co-workers? Why not! ugh. Out to dinner and cocktails with friends several days a week? SOUNDS GREAT.
June- weather finally getting nice, but I'm still working too much, not planning ahead (I know better!) and have no will power. Need to get my mind right. Start reeling in the drinking and half-heartedly try to eat a little better. Still not planning ahead. Workout a handful of times. You know what the best kick in the pants is? Getting fat. God dammit! I'm back to where I started last September.
Which brings us to now, July 7th. I just spent the last week in North Carolina, visiting my older brother and younger sister in Raleigh/Durham. Even spent some time at the beach. Being around them was so nice, not only are they just overall kick-ass in general, they have both become very health oriented and I was so happy to see them looking as fit as ever. Now, this kinda sucked for me because I pretty much felt like a fat loser, even though I have self confidence and self-esteem I could have more and I just feel so crappy about getting off track. I just think about where I would be now if I had kept up my plan. I would be feeling great! More fun to be around, happier, more able to cope with the work stress, and more confident in my journey towards my education and career goals.
There are a couple of elements critical to my success that I need to focus on. The first is planning ahead. Pre-planning meals and making sure I have clean gym clothes ready to go. The second is finding positive role models. I need to surround myself with like-minded folks who want to be fit and happy healthy.
The good news is, I have found my bootstraps (again!), and I know how to pull myself up by them.
The next round begins now. Let the sweat sessions commence!
